It’s me again, your daughter from eastern Nigeria.
First of all, I am truly grateful for the gift of life, an additional year, family and daily provisions. I can’t even begin to express how thankful I am; for I know without you none of these would be possible.
But Father, we need to talk!
I know you’ve always said, you will never let me go through anything I cannot handle. (1 Corinthians 10:13)
Forgive me in advance because I’m about to get real with you. I’m writing you this letter, sweating profusely thanks to the epileptic nature of electricity in this part of the universe and I bet you already know the numberless challenges I face living here but we would talk about your choice for my origin some other time.
I’m anxious Dad, really anxious about my future, I know you said I shouldn’t worry about anything (Philippians 4:6-7) because you’ve got it figured out. Yet, I’m confused sometimes at the turn of events; one minute I think it’s a lucky break, the next minute I’m right back to being confused all over again.
Do you know how hard it is to answer your surname out here? Most times, I try not to let people know that you’re my Father, I just tell them you’re someone I have heard of.
Please explain to me why your other kids who disregard you fearlessly seem to thrive? No really, talk to me, Lord. Ok I get that you’re so benevolent but when is it going to be my turn? How long must I wait?
I know I missed most of our meetings especially those scheduled for early in the morning and evenings, including our dates during weekends and mid-days. In my defense, I’m stressed!
Perhaps, if you would pick up my calls and ask Gabriel or Michael to run those errands, we won’t be here. Or just speak Lord, one word is enough. Nothing is too hard for you. (Jeremiah 32:27)
I’m whining, right? I can hear myself nag and I’m sorry.
Yesterday I read the little book you gave me; I smiled at all the beautiful things you promised me.
I love how you say you will fight for me in every situation and all I have to do is do nothing. (Exodus 14:14) But, it’s hard to do nothing, have you listened to the news? Do you read the statistics? It’s scary. I know, it doesn’t matter, at least not in my case. (Deuteronomy 31:8)
Do you remember the plan you talked about? The one to give me the future I hope for. (Jeremiah 29:11) I need to see the schedule your working on. Come on Dad, why don’t you just show me exactly how things would turn out, so I don’t waste my time worrying and debating which way to turn.
Oh, I almost forgot, I paid my tithe last Sunday. We have a deal, don’t forget. (Malachi 3:10)
“Bring the whole tithe into the storehouse, that there may be food in my house. Test me in this,” says the LORD Almighty, “and see if I will not throw open the floodgates of heaven and pour out so much blessing that there will not be room enough to store it.”
Your words Dad, all yours.
These days, I enjoy looking at the sky especially at night; it reminds me of how unfathomable you are. Do you want to know something weird? I attempted counting the bundle of hairs on my hairbrush this morning, and I couldn’t. How is it that you know the number of hairs on my head? (Luke 12:7) Gracious Father, you’re indeed awesome.
I have decided to stop postponing our meetings and dates and fix our relationship because I want you back full time in my life. I tried using my initiatives, I failed woefully. (1 Corinthians 3:19)
I promise to show up and take out quality time for us. I will listen to your words and read the precious book you left for me. Please help me when I’m down, do not misinterpret my shortcomings for disownment. The last thing I’d do is turn my back on you.
Please help me drop all these bad habits I have, there are so many. Teach me to be just as you are. (Psalm 143:10)
Remind me to trust you completely even when I don’t understand. (Mark 11:22) Force me if that’s what it takes but don’t let my wisdom block your blessings from reaching me.
Remind me of your constant love, just as you have always done. Teach me how to love and give to others as you freely give me. Bless me with incredible ideas on how to make the lives of everyone around me better.
By the way, I see you read my wish list, I have already started receiving my packages. THANK YOU, DADDY.
I know you love me more than I will ever understand.
I love you too Dad.